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Hello
And thank you for coming back to another episode of my diary I just want to
put some thoughts down on a Saturday night to let people know what weekends are
like for me and people like me when I say people like me I mean people with no
family very few friends and no children and that last bit is the important part
because without children at my age which is 54 you don’t have circles with
other children or other parents
And so
Get overlooked at most times
And especially at weekends and bank holidays and Easter and Christmas
It’s not always our fault that we’ve ended up with no children my story I’m I
will tell my story one day but it’s full of tragedy child abuse
And bullying and intimidation
Not exactly the best breeding ground for relationships
So
I mean I remember working when I was working, I used to dread weekends I used
to count 60 hours from leaving work because that would be how long it would be
before I would have anyone else to talk to
Apart from maybe when I used to go shopping so
As I don’t work anymore
It’s
Even more profound
Because the week is fairly quiet for me anyway, but weekends are like a
ghost town if it wasn’t for Mary my ex calling me
I wouldn’t know it was the weekend
It would be like a continuous single boring day
Even when I get Charlene coming around twice a week picking the rubbish up
don’t really have much of a conversation with her she’s only here for about 20
seconds and then she’s gone again
I talk to my cats, but they don’t really have much of a conversation amongst
them
There are online people that talk to me but
I don’t want text people
This is what the council don’t get I’m not reading their emails I haven’t
read their emails for weeks now I can see the numbers piling up but I haven’t
read them I want the council to call me to discuss things I don’t want to be
told what to do I want to be spoken to like a normal human
I’ve done three sets of videos today that I’ve done over the last 24 hours
and I’ve done subtitles I haven’t put them up on the website yet I’ll do that
probably Sunday tomorrow as of well in 14 minutes time
And I’ll do that when I do the subtitles for this one and I’ll do the rest
of them all altogether
I’ve had to redo this one because the microphone settings were a bit too low
so I’ve had to redo it you know like I keep saying to other people online that
have cat is an is a good one the presentation guru I have to really increase
the volume on tv for her and if suddenly if you’re watching one of her videos
at like one in the morning and suddenly an advert comes on then the advert is
really loud so please if you are uploading videos to YouTube do a sound check
make sure the volume is up the levels are right and then do your main recording
I normally do that but I just couldn’t be bothered a moment ago and I it was
only ten minutes I’ll read I’m redoing it um
I suppose I’ll keep this one short as well because I feel like I’m saying it
all over again I am saying it all over again
But there we are I do wonder how many people there are out there like me
I do feel so sorry for because it’s not our fault that people don’t like us
No one befriends people like us
It’s just we come in handy occasionally
Very occasionally in my book
I really don’t know what to say
The fact I’ve managed to work all this out is remarkable in my book
I will sit down and finish off me like I did a summary life story early this
year
I’m going to have to pad that out a bit and do a proper life story all about
child abuse and parents dying and siblings ignoring you I’ve been ignored by my
brothers and sisters and then by friends and family and everyone’s got an
excuse
I’ll give up I have tried my best to keep in touch with people and it’s like
when they don’t really respond, or they don’t respond until they can spare you
some time
Then I really don’t feel motivated to talk to people and they say well you
don’t talk to us so we won’t talk to you, oh grow up will you!
Anyway, I suppose I better end it now keep looking away from the camera
thinking what I’m going to say
At least there’s only Sunday left and I’m back to Monday and hip hooray I can
look forward to maybe not having a visit from the postman again.
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