And welcome to what will probably be my final entry. The struggle is over. The system has won. I’m giving up. Nothing’s changed. But when I can’t even get the police to call me back.
I know I’m not going to get anywhere. It doesn’t matter what the Ombudsman say, or I’m just going to live in this flat until it kills me. I’ve blocked the police. Just now, so they haven’t got the excuse. So we tried calling you Miss Gibbons. I don’t give a **** anymore. I can’t even get total strangers on plenty of fish live streaming to talk to me. So that says it all, don’t it? 54 years. And what’s it been for? All I’ve got is my cat. And pretty soon I might not have those. I’ve got two think. Because I’m not looking after myself properly. I’ve got sores and scabs that are getting infected because I’ve got 30 odd bags of. Rubbish in the place. Every little cut is getting infected. I can’t talk to my GP because he doesn’t believe a ******* word that I say. He doesn’t even believe my consultant. I’ve actually tried contacting the consultant today but. I can’t be bothered. I have given up. You’ve won. Well done. Things haven’t changed. I don’t see the point in carrying on with. These entries because. You know, I’ve got 25 subscribers and I’m lucky if I get 8 or 9 views. So a good 2/3 of my subscribers are ******* liars. What’s the point in subscribing and not watching? If you don’t watch my ******* videos, I’d rather have a true figure of people that watch my videos ******* unsubscribe if. You’re not watching? I don’t want your sympathy. I want you to take notice. Open on off. Pof would meet me since Saturday. And even then. I can’t get anyone to talk to. The kindest people on there I’ve come across since Saturday. Have been some girls in their thirties, 20s and 30s. And they’d be nice to me. And that’s it. Merlin’s worried. That’s why he’s sitting down here with me. Merlin knows that he’s not right. This is the. First time actually that Merlin’s been on camera. Let’s see if I can. There you go. That’s what I’m hearing. My boss, I call him. He’s got the prettiest little green eyes. And he’s such a loving cat. And you. You do love me, Merlin. I know you do. But I’m not good for you or myself. I’ll give it a few days and. If I can’t get anything done. I’ll get you and the other two taken away. 12 years of long learning. And all because I’m too scared to go out the front door. I’m going to lose him. For no one ******* taking any notice. What is it you want the CCG to do? Well, considering it’s a health problem and there’s nothing we can do. I’m falling in between the cracks again, boys and girls. Or CCG problem. It is a housing problem, but they’re not talking to me. And no one told. Me. Why? Oh, you supposed to be told. Why? Yeah, I ******* love both. Be told why? I know what your rights are, but no one’s ******* enforcing my rights. You know, I really can’t be bothered wasting any time with you ******* anymore. You’re on. **** ***. Delete me. Can’t do this anymore.